February 2012
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Tonight was honestly a really good night for me. I needed and wanted to get out of the house, and it worked out accordingly to plan. I had dinner with Nikki and Bruce and met a new person! Hah, Nikki drove us out to Davis, and we ate at a pizza place, and got cupcakes, then stopped by Austin and Sabrina’s house. Yeah, haha. In between that, their were some complications, but it was resolved...
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Alright, if you’re ever going to call me and just end the phone call on a bad note, ever, there’s a high chance I won’t answer you again for a while. I hate people calling me in a bitch mood. It’s fine if you need to vent, but if you just sound Iike a little bitch throughout the phone call and not say anything nice, well forget you and fuck you the . Have a good fucking...
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Being pushed up against a wall, receiving a kiss, turning into a make-out session, when you turn around trying to walk out. Then slowly wrapping your legs onto that one person, playing with their hair as your lips still touch, and them walking over to your bed dropping you flat down, and then getting on top of you.
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I am ashamed of the person that I’ve become today. I feel as if I have become an asshole that I didn’t expect to be. I feel as if I’ve become a “player” again. I need to fix this and put my life back on track the way I want to see it, and not how others portray my well being.
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Everything worked out so much better in my head. Man, I wish my fantasy and dreams played a real life role. It would make my life much more easier to sustain and able to handle more well.
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Sometimes I feel so dumb with the actions I do.
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I hate when people ask me if I’m jealous of my ex/the person I used to talk to. I mean, we had something. It ended. If I’m happy, let it be. Why would their business need to intertwine with mine? It’s none of my business to know about it. If it comes across me, it happened. I can’t stop it from not happening.
I dislike those side comments where people would ask you,...
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If I didn’t need you before, what makes you think I need you now?
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Don’t tell me you’re sorry if you don’t mean it. Tell me sorry, and let me know that you know what you did wrong. Don’t say it just because you want me to be happy about it in the end. No, that’ll just make me more angry than before. Sure, you’ll say it over and over and over again, but no. I will become angry and more frustrated with you.
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If you were to put me on hold on a phone longer than 20 minutes, at least know I will most likely hang up. I hate waiting. And if you call back, I will either delay answering, answer in a split second, or ignore your phone call.
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Well, I feel bad, and you seem to deserve happiness. Only time will tell, and when the time does come, it’ll bound to happen again. Slowly you need to move on, because dwelling in the past isn’t good for your health at all. Hopefully you’ll revive from this state and being of depression. I’m here if you need it. Always.
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I still question myself from time to time of why you even liked me from the start. Then I realize that I couldn’t care less anymore. I don’t know why it still bothers me but, in the end, you’re none of my concern any longer.
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I love it when people send me long text messages on how much they love me and to get better soon when I’m sick. I’m stuck in bed drinking orange juice, tea with honey, and eating hot soup, and I get a lovely wonderful text from a close friend. Those texts make my days. Adding on to it, I love when they call you just to see if you’re okay. Just to hear their voice and all. And,...
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I want to sleep in bed with you all night long. Holding hands, my head on your chest, and your other arm around me. Watching a movie, small kisses here and there, and then just falling asleep on your chest. When I wake up the next morning, you’ll be there. Yeah.
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I want someone to take care of me when I’m sick. Lol, that would be nice. They would bring me cough drops, tissues, and medicine from the store and just come inside to cuddle with me. They wouldn’t mind to get sick either, but just being there for support and love. Yeah, pretty much.
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I’m so fucking angry. I know what you’re fucking doing. I know exactly how this is going to go down. You’re a little manipulative asshole. That’s what you are and you’ll never be anything more. You fucker. I hate yo. Now leave my best friend alone. God damn it. LEAVE HIM THE FUCK alone. Shit.
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At least he treats me as a best friend. What am I to you now? You’re never there for me. I’m always here for you. What is this? Whatever.
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Don’t even label me as a “best friend” if I’m not really your best friend. Please don’t. I have to go to you and ask you for help, but if you’re not going to be there for me, then what’s the point. I’ll move on, I don’t need you in my life. Hah. I’m going to be here for you, but best know one thing, I’m not going into detail with...
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I hate those “friends” who don’t even have faith in what you do. They question other people and doubt that you can do anything. What kind of a friend are you? I mean, I know I can do it, why can’t you?
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I crave the most delicious stuff at night ever. At this very moment, I’m craving for a steak bowl from Chipotle, Pinkberry, Sweet Tea from McDonalds, Curly Fries from Jack in the Box, Atomic/Hot wings from Wing Stop, a Double Double Cheeseburger from In’N’Out, and UGH. KILL ME AND MY LATE NIGHT CRAVINGS WHEN I CAN’T SLEEP</3
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Time to move on. There is no point in staying with the past that will get you no where in life. Sigh, I need to stop thinking about this subject.
January 2012
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There are those times where memories come back rushing into my mind before I go to bed every night. Those things make me miss you and make me want you from time to time. I hate that feeling. I tell myself it’s a work in progress but it really isn’t. If I keep this up, it will never be what it should be. I want something I can never have, that’s long story short.
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I don’t even know why I considered you like that. As much as I complain and cry over something so little, it’s something to me in a small way now. Damn, time has past by so quickly and it took me so long to realize this. I feel pathetic, weak, and stupid. Well, time will only tell when I’m finally done with this feeling. Hah, slowly moving on with life.
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Life is enjoyable and I’m making every moment of it last. I could care less about most things anymore. Relationships? Nah. I don’t feel the need of rushing into one, needing one, or wanting one. I just want a best friend that has those qualities and can just be as that. If anything more becomes of it, then let it be.
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When you have those friends who are always going to be there for you. The ones who support you in everything you do. The ones who are going to stick up for you when you can’t talk right. The ones you love to death and you don’t want them to leave your life? Yeah. I have a couple of them. They’re wonderful.
I’m sick and tired of the people I attend school with. There are people on the face of this earth that I wish to push off of. I want to get this school year done with already. Some people are just straight out shallow, messed up in the head, and won’t do shit. They’ll think the things they want, and they view you as that.
Lol, get me out of here.
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I hate being lonely at times. I mean, there are times where I have company, but the lonesome feeling of being single. There are pros and cons to it. I find many pros, but it’s just a few cons that get to me. Seriously, I hate being lonely, because sometimes I feel like I have no one to go to. At the same time, I’m better off single without any problems and without the stress in life....
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If I don’t have faith in myself, how will anyone else. Fml to the 10th power.
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@lovelynn
why is she so amazing. i just love her so much. best big sister ever.
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My weekend has been made due to CTC, friends sleeping over, and a great start on my conclave speech. I am determined to finish my first speech by tonight. I don’t care how long it takes me, I’m going to sit on this computer to go and work through it.
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Working on so many Speeches, and trying to memorize my monologue for theater. This is the worst time to be in this term for school. Term 3, this is stressful.
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First impressions are important to me. If you make a wrong impression, it’ll take some time for me to see you the way you want me to see you. I might find you annoying, ignorant, etc at first if you make a wrong impressions. Over time, it’ll change.
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I’m done. I’ve moved on from the past. What more can I say? I’m happy and satisfied with what life has come to so far. I have so much more to learn, but overall, I’m just glad it’s all over. Fighting this battle inside between my heart and thoughts. Fuck, what was I thinking. I felt the need to move on, but I couldn’t. Now that it’s been a while, nothing...
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I hate losing opportunities and chances that I get. It sucks. I hate how life works this way.
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School work has been occupying me and taking over my life now. Lol, I rarely even post anymore. I rarely have anything to say anymore. But this is a “for now” stage. Aha, here’s just a quick recap on what’s been going on.
I’m happy and content with my “love life”.
School work is coming to be my first priority now.
Friendships are becoming stronger with...
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CTC on Saturday! Time to learn about what an LTG does, and wanting to run for LTG. Leh’go.
What is there to blog about anymore? I’ve stated my feelings. I’ve stated how I felt yet nothing has changed. Nothing needs to be changed. It’s just how I feel. You can’t change something that can’t be changed. It’s hard to.
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About Me.
Hi, my name is Ryan.
I’m fifteen years old.
I’m a Sophomore at FHS.
December 12, 96’.
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